Kedekut ilmukah saya?

I really hate it when people made plans without consulting me first. A case in point, a friend/colleague/fellow candidate arranged for me to teach a group of candidates from in and out of my institution on how to use this particular software without me agreeing to anything (she mentioned the idea in passing while I was damn busy working on my overdue paper). Since I was such in a good mood after submission of my paper, eventually I agreed to set a date & thus committed myself. On the day that we both agreed upon, only two of them managed to come. I went ahead with the session since I already had the materials –handouts & sample files ready (I did my homework ok!). Yesterday, there’s a group of them coming in to learn how to use this particular software again. I wasn’t consulted about this so I guess it wasn’t my responsibility anymore. But the so-called instructor, the one who attend my class lastweek kept on asking me, whether she can photocopy my handouts, if she can borrow my manual, etc. etc. I wasn’t really in the mood to help them. I already put aside 2 hours lastweek (for free)…Even if one of my ‘student’ wanted to pay me to help him in particular with the programming for his SUR, I said jokingly, “You couldn’t afford to pay me my hourly rate – very high indeed”. Actually, the only selfish reason is that I am supposed to concentrate on doing my own work – my thesis & none other. If I were to commit myself to helping him, it means lots of time involved in perusing the manual & texts, play try and error with the programme & see it come to the end results which is basically out of my league. At the end of the day, I did refer him to other (& more qualified) person.

But why do I get this niggling feeling as if I did wrong?

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