What do u think of me?

Sometimes I really hate myself, like yesterday.
I procrastinated.
I lied to people (white lies are still lies aren’t they?).
I lose focus.
I feel really bad over what happened to me. As if I’m losing control over my life. Sliding deeper into depression – an endless cycle of hope-guilt-anxiety which I want to break free.
I should love myself more.
I would feel better after this, starting from now.
I’m going to work hard & really concentrate. InsyaAllah. Ya Allah, pls help me.

Then, came this gal who first introduced me to blogland (Neir: My Gratitude Journal) & really shake me out of my mood:

What do u think abt me?it doesn’t affecting me wholely,but ur honest opinion means a lot to me.i’ll wait.me~mon.
Nape ni mon? Out of the blue? R u ok? U really want me 2 answer that? Or dis is a joke? Heheh
Haha.eden boring tgu bas kek za’ba ni ha..nak jwb ke?jwb jela kak..buruk baik, aiman xkesssah.
I think u’r a survivor (background music – I’m survivor!! Beyonce? Ke hape tu!). A bit playful mayb (Sin Chan the cartoon) but we can’t tk life seriously eh- 2 depressing! A gud person on d whole bt u need 2standup a bit, don’t dpend on others 4 ur wellbeing (meds & all). Bt then who am I 2say much abt u? Udah updet?
Later.lum g.nak taruk gamba2 g genting.it’ll be a long entry..when I update I will inform u,k.rememba a kak rad, u r always somebody.he.nice.thanks a lot.
Wat u think abt me lak? Best gak tkar2 pandangan ni! Sombong? Proud? Loner? Bz memjg?
Haha, very focus gal la.xleh terkam sbrg.kang kena cakar.a respective (-able) person, tough, but still eager to enjoy ir life in ur own way, sis.cxxe n phxxxxxxxc, did u realize that?ahha.and lastly, u r an independent person,knowing what u want to do in life. Haha. Vry potpet2me, ha..yours sincerely, ~mon.
Waaa…touche3x!Im touchd..I’l let u knw lah one of these days..14 Sept 5:10pm

p/s: Apalah…, mengong punyo komputa – sakit jiwo den!! I need help!!