HE-story that becomes (almost) history

He’s good for my ego. Among other (unimportant) things that he ampu-ed me was that I look younger (Pergh!!) & slimmer (kembang ke langit moment – I said, “Stress la!”). Naper suara lain ye? (Stresss lagik!!! I purposely changed my intonation (pitching lari hehehe) over the phone & ckp2, xde niat nak manja2 doh) He did sindir me at the end of our meeting, “Ni dah lepas 4 tahun baru boleh jumpa. Lepas ni nak tunggu 2012 pulak ke?” He was surprised anyway when I say yes – how could I say no to “... nak belanja sudi tak (oh, ever so polite)?” My msg: Ok tp klu ramai2 la. “Sorang (x ke kau kesian?). Mana ada sape kat sini.” And Lisa already had a date too. Too late to arrange for my other friends.
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It was to be a late supper as first I had to deal with my landlord – I felt like I was circus material – being gawked at, at least the house with my things in it - and those young girls who came to look around. They’re students from a nearby college, with the intention to lease the house for 2 complete years. It’s a good deal for the landlord & he managed to mark-up the rental by including the maintenance fee separately. I told him, at least gimme a discount or something since I already help him in promoting the house & jaga the house nicely –yes, katanya nak belanja makan! (tunggu kakak & anak2 mai sekali la)
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I kinda annoyed him too (dia tegur ni) by addressing myself as ‘kak’ – come on, he’s only 29 (and completed his phd)! *sob3x* - interlaced within our conversation.
Aside from work & academic matters (that’s why I agreed to meet him in the first place – mana boleh nak sombong2, kelak memakan diri tau), we talked about:

Thesis (vivaed LULUS CEMERLANG OK): Eleh, takat buku cerita tebal 2 inci camni, ah-kak pun boleh buat…(hehehe…xnak ngalah tuuuu…) blahblah…

Dah ada gelpren? Kak kenalkan dengan kawan kak nak tak? (seriously, one of my exschoolmates that I’ve met a couple of weeks ago has agreed to this – she’s a high-flyer (literally), Asia Pac is nothing dah)…
Kak? …(I laid out my cards on the table) Ahkak sedang berkenalan dgn seseorang lani…(ntah betul ntah idak ni – thus the entry title)
Maybe he sensed that I’m bluffing so he asked the whereabout of him…(tipu ajela!) & told me how to test a guy (coz dia dah kena beb!)
I pestered him about his girls – there’re two (OMG!) but he’s really not interested in any one of them. One is a teacher, exuni-classmate. Two is working with P*rak state govt. Both kinda annoyed him since the family members like sister ke, uncle ke (only the girls’ family know about him but not vice versa) keep on asking, “Bila lagi?” (padahal baru sekali-dua kuar makan)

He mentioned his brother who got married quite late but presented his wife with a car & a house immediately after the solemnisation of marriage – orang Melayu kata, basuh kaki je nak masuk rumah.
Then, he regaled me with rough calculation of the cost of marriage nowadays (tak cukup RM20K toksah pikir le nak pinang anak dara orang katanya – that figure covers everything from mahar/dowry, kenduri & such), lamenting the fact that with what he’s earning (single income, if the wife has to quit to be with him) – it’s not gonna be enough (tak cukup2 lagi ke?).

I wonder what was the point of the conversation….(remind me again of one of the frog princes who told my bro’s neighbour that since he already bought a house, me- (kalau kawin dgn dia) just need to buy a car je lagi! @$#&^%#!!!)

My advice to him was, “Jgn biarkan orang bergantung harap.” Kalau suka, masuklah meminang –jgn tunggu lama2. Kalau tak, lepaskan aje…daripada biarkan depa menunggu. Memanglah sakit bila ditinggalkan tapi sakitnya sekejap – lepas tu – Ha, petik jari je, ramai la yg mai!! (why do I have a feeling like tercubit peha sendiri?)

So, this is what I can conclude after meeting him:
1. I’m not scared of him anymore – nothing happen (we did talked about cinta pertama, spark & such – Nada!) And forget about hiding mav from him – he’s been around since Sunday.
2. I can be myself with him now that I’m no longer afraid of what might happen between us..since I already told him off. Same goes with others I guess…so be it.
3. I know what I want in terms of marriage & the whole enchilada (bila sampai masanya bukan gatal sgt lani pun). I want what Abe Id has with K.LiL (with all the trials & tribulations which only make their relationship closer & stronger than ever), Simah & Halil (remind me of Ah Damn & our closer to one-year online relationship – I quit point-blank when he told me he loves me –he’s much younger –main2kah?), D and arwah suami, ahkak & …., dlt & suami, UL (Oh ever so gentleman!) & wife, Jacqui & hubby, AZ & suami-Pak Imam, Umi & suami …(no example from my family-side since I know their true colors hehehe…)
4. I’m a lil’ bit of a health freak – keboroian adalah a big no-no. (But he said he’d panjat Gunung J*rai lagi…whaddaheck?) At the same time, apa ada pada rupa kan? Makcik konpius sungguh…
5. I went weak on my knees when a guy offers to take care of mav – you know, maintenance & stuff, where & how, tunjuk jalan etc.
6. Need to socialize (go out) more often – boleh kira sebelah tangan daa… berapa kali kuar dating…last was with him (that was in late 2004 katanya – I have to gave him credits for being persistence), there’s one in early 2004 (maximum of 2 dates after which he cabut-ed on me – padan muka I!), another time when I was staying in SA – I brought along a fren (2000? Totally not suited..), then back in 1999 – with my (supposedly) boss for the first time ever ( I ran away for good for the second time). God, I feel so ancient…tapikan berdua2an tu berdosa kan? Walaupun di khalayak ramai..so won’t do lah.
7. Sebagai anak bongsu yg (not really) manja, I want all of his attention on me not the other way around. Imagine klu partner with anak bongsu jugak or anak mak lagi? Cows will fly!
8. Bickering among family members is to be expected. My family is normal after all.

Psst! Simah, does that answer your question?